Duality: The Necessity of Confidence and Fear

The Necessity of Confidence and Fear

This week I am in paradise. A place where I know who I am, and have made my dreams come true. A place where nature has held me up, supported me, torn me down, and constantly breathed new life into my soul. This place is Blue Osa.

I have never been anywhere quite like it. In the morning I wake up to monkeys howling and screaming. At night I hear the soothing waves on the shore and the sound cradles me to sleep.

Teaching yoga for a whole week here has taught me that I truly CAN do anything I want as long as I have confidence, strength, intention and faith leading me.

And if I embrace duality.

Because it has been terrifying. I have never taught the same 20 people for an entire week. I have never fully stepped into the role of teaching sensual yoga. I have never taught so many people I so deeply respect in their businesses, and in who they are. It was scary.

Costa Rica Osa Peninsula Yoga RetreatThere were moments when I wanted to jump out of my skin.

There were moments when I felt like I was going to vomit.

There were moments when I wanted to go back to bed and sleep another 3 hours so I would have enough strength to stand in my power.

But the beautiful thing is I got through it. And not only did I get through it, I had people tell me they have never taken a class like mine. I had people tell me their lives had been changed forever, and they have been broken open in a way they didn’t know was possible.

There was an amazing workshop leader who hadn’t cried in months, and through my class she finally let the tears flow and opening up to her own heart and self-love. What an honor. What a gift to have given her the chance to emote- to feel, to express. After she cried she decided to jump into the ocean and celebrate her life, allowing freedom to wash over her.

The Fall Equinox is a very special time where both day and night are at exactly the same length. It only happens twice a year. Light and Dark find themselves equal. I happened to be here at Blue Osa during that time.

This concept of equality within darkness and light is what has allowed me to fully show up this week supported by nature.

Costa Rica Osa Peninsula Yoga RetreatWithin every teaching moment there seemed to be a mixture of two emotions. I embraced them fully, and because of that, I believe my classes were that much more powerful. And real.

Confidence and anxiety.

Faith and fear.

Sensuality and shame.

I believe that only through this embrace are we really living our lives to their fullest.

The Fall Equinox is a beautiful reminder of this truth, here, in this magical place called Blue Osa.

About Ellie Aaron

Ellie Aaron is a passionate teacher that transformed her life through studying yoga, meditation, and holistic health. Certified from the Urban Yoga Foundation, Yogaworks-200 Hour Training, and the OM 500 hour Certification with Cyndi Lee, she has been teaching yoga for over three years and adores it. She is also a certified Holistic Health coach from the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and Coaches clients in creating a healthy, vibrant, and joyful lifestyle. She is also a certified Meditation instructor through the OM Meditation Teacher training program. Ellie credits yoga and meditation with changing her life by transforming feelings of anxiety and self-doubt to confidence and joy in her body and mind. Ellie is also the creator of the new podcast “The Ellie Aaron Hour” that digs deep into her favorite things (yoga, meditation, good vegan food, movies, philosophy, comedy, spirituality and more)

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